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I'm a Warrior!

Tonight, I was driving home and pondering the last few months; and as I pondered I noticed growth. It made me smile. It made me proud of the woman God is shaping me into too. It also made me want to write this blog post. So here we are.

I am a letter writer. God tells me what to write and I write. One of the things I often write in my letters is that the recipient is a warrior and that warriors do not lose. I mean that with all my heart and truly believe God often tells me to tell people that.

But what about me? 

That message is for me too. 

I'm a warrior because 7 months ago, I left a very bad and toxic relationship. My lipstick used to be too loud. My loving others used to be too much. It was always something and I was too much for him. 

You know when you're used to running back to something, even bad, over and over? How hard and painful it is NOT to run back? It has been a battle of the mind. Not because it was any good for me, but it was my safety net.

I'm a warrior because I took charge of my health. I have Endometriosis. I currently have had one surgery and am planning another. I live with chronic pain. My appendix got removed in the last surgery ... what was left of it. The Endometriosis had destroyed it, which only happens in 3% of cases. So, I was a rare statistic, as if we didn't already know I was special/weird, right?

I'm a warrior because I see a therapist. Yes, you can still love Jesus and see a therapist. God gave us resources for a reason. I work out my issues and keep it real. It's a blessing.

No one would know any of that stuff by looking at me; and that's not even half of it! 

But today I can say I am doing the work and I am a warrior. 

These are a few more things that I am:

I am more than a conqueror (Romans 8:37).

I am an overcomer (John 4:4)

I am redeemed (Galatians 2:20)

I am loved (Zephaniah 3:17)

I can do all things (Philippians 4:13)

I am enough (Ephesians 2:10)

Today, I wear the lipstick. Not because of or for anyone else but because I like it. I write the words God gives me to people I don't even know. I try and love like Jesus and walk like Him too. I fight through the pain. I keep seeing my counselor and seeking God. I dig into His Word and practice sitting still. I do the hard work and keep doing it. 

In COVID-19, that looks like looking back on all God has brought me through and knowing that the same God that got me through all that will most assuredly get me through this season! His faithfulness record is 100%. 

It's far from perfect but God is making me strong. I am a warrior; and warriors don't lose, especially when I report to and bow to the King who fights my battles. 

"The Lord Himself will fight for you. Just stay calm." Exodus 14:14

I am a warrior!







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