Hills and Valleys

Tonight, I was talking to God and He painted me this picture that I thought was so cool that I wanted to write about it. It's not like I hadn't heard it before, but in this season it hit differently. I am a indoor cycling instructor when we are not in the middle of a pandemic. When all this began, I worked out at the gym. Not like a hard core health nut but enough to move my body and be healthy. However, the gyms are shut down now and who knows when everything will reopen. So, I hadn't been working out.  Then last weekend, I made the decision to do some form of exercise everyday. Why? Well, I don't want to come out of this looking like a marshmallow, but I also really can't jump back into teaching a high, physically demanding class if I haven't moved my body in two months. So, on Monday I did ab work. Tuesday, it hurt to breathe. Still I persevered. Then yesterday, I focused my exercises on my thighs. Today, it hurt to walk up stairs and I didn'...

I am not okay. What a way to start a blog, right? But it's the truth. This pandemic has left me feeling shaky at best. I lost a job I thought I would be in for years. I have struggled to find any form of consistency. My future is questionable. My plans non-existent. Everything feels like it has fallen apart.  I'm not sure it really hit me until this week. I've cried a lot (which even then may be an understatement). I'm not okay. And that's okay. I still have faith. I know God will get me through this. I know it'll all be alright. "And we know that ALL things will work together for the good of those called by God and according to His purpose." Romans 8:28 I also know it's okay to feel this way. It's a grieving process. It's okay to cry. Everyone's world has been shaken and changed because of corona. It's not all bad but it is different. I had plans before this. Things I was looking forward too. Now, m...