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I Know That God Is Good

I am not okay. What a way to start a blog, right? But it's the truth.

This pandemic has left me feeling shaky at best. I lost a job I thought I would be in for years. I have struggled to find any form of consistency. My future is questionable. My plans non-existent. Everything feels like it has fallen apart. 

I'm not sure it really hit me until this week. I've cried a lot (which even then may be an understatement).

I'm not okay.

And that's okay.

I still have faith. I know God will get me through this. I know it'll all be alright.

"And we know that ALL things will work together for the good of those called by God and according to His purpose." Romans 8:28

I also know it's okay to feel this way. It's a grieving process. It's okay to cry. Everyone's world has been shaken and changed because of corona. It's not all bad but it is different.

I had plans before this. Things I was looking forward too. Now, many of those things are put on hold, if not happening at all. I had a steady job. Now, the only worldly steady thing existent is uncertainty.

I took for granted going to church and my small groups. Now, I don't know when I'll see many of them face to face again. 

In all this though, I know God is good.

Whether corona were to happen or not was never the basis of God's faithfulness. Whether my plans remained the same or not what not the foundation of His goodness.

God is good. He is faithful. His compassion is unending. His love unfailing.

"So we’re not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There’s far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can’t see now will last forever."
2 Corinthians 4:16-18

I don't believe we serve a God who is like, "Just get over it already!" No, we serve a God who created real feelings and who, Himself, wept (John 11:35).

I know I am loved. I know I am not alone. I know that I am doing my best. I know that I am enough. I know this will end. I know that God is with me and beside me (Isaiah 41:10). 

My feelings are not a determination of the things God says about me. So, while corona definitely has me questioning my place, I am pressing into the One who says my identity is still in Him.

I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I may still cry and feel like I am falling apart; but I do know that God is and will continue to be good.

"For the LORD is good. His unfailing love continues forever, and his faithfulness continues to each generation."
Psalm 100:5







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